… And I’m shy. Which together equals a horrible social life. I mean I have/had friends. Lately I’m not sure which is it because it only seems that I have friends when there’s school or something holding us together. When there’s nothing, it’s just me. And that’s what hurts me the most: all these years and I still feel like a stranger sometimes. But I only blame myself, no one else, for this. I don’t know what I do that prevents me from making long lasting relationships. I try, but nothing seems to click. And it scares me. My biggest fear is being forgotten, alone, and invisible forever because deep down I know this isn’t the real me. I’m a fun, quirky, happy person. I don’t know what happened but along the line all this got covered up with insecurities and shyness. Just like this post will probably be covered up by other things and never seen. I’m trying to regain myself, but it’s so hard and it’s taken so much longer than I’d hoped. I wanted to actually tell someone this. But going through my contacts and Facebook made me realize just how much I missed out on amazing friendships I could have had. I’m sitting here wondering if I should say “Hey! I miss you; can we be friends again.” to these people that meant so much to me for seven years and try again or if it would be too late and creepy to say something out of the blue.
At the end of this, I realize this whole post is awkward and further establishes my shyness so I guess I’m totally fucked.
Yes! I’m gonna get fit like
Then I see a brownie and I’m like
So I eat it and then I get pissed at myself like
But then I realize I can just start again tomorrow so it’s okay
This is me, like every fucking day, of every year, of my life.
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boybands are weird because they always sing about how this one girl is really hot and special and it just makes me confused and wonder if they’re going to try and share her or just completely gang bang her or what
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